Several months ago during one of my many trips to pick up a prescription for Mama, I was sitting in the Walgreens drive thru just wailing. There were cars in front of me and cars behind me. I didn’t care. I was in the absolute fire and it was hard. I was listening, almost feeling …
The Only One
The thing about suffering is that we often believe that we are the only ones who have ever known pain. No one else’s pain or trials could compare to our own. Perhaps it’s that tiny part of us that want our stories to be listened to but at the very least, acknowledged. In my own …
Villains and Victors
When I think about the times in my life when I’ve been hurt the most by another person, it’s not the kind of person most people would imagine. It’s not a monster of a person, skulking around in the shadows ready to throw a crowbar into your forehead. No, in my experience it has been …
When The World Stands Still
Throughout life, we are presented with many moments that define us. These moments can be good ones that take our breath away at the mere remembrance of them. Or, they can be the kind that knock the wind out of you, and leave you gasping for years. This week was made up of the latter. …
The Battle is Not Yours
Revenge can be so tempting. The urge to hurt those that hurt us can be so overwhelming, especially when people kick us at our most vulnerable. I've been there. I've wanted to have the last ugly word, the last snarly laugh, and the last dig. I've wanted to give people an ounce of the mess …
Trust
I'm the kind of person that looks both ways on a one way street. I look both ways when my light turns green before pulling off at an intersection. It's safe to say that trust is something that I lack in a big way. It's no wonder, then, that I have a hard time handing …
Why Not?
There are going to be some folks who are in shock when they get to Heaven. There will be people there they never would’ve imagined. People who don’t look like them, maybe people who didn’t even act the way they thought they should act. But that’s the miracle of Jesus. He loves regardless. And so …
If Not for CeCe Winans
Over the last fourteen months I've been on a journey. A journey to find my healing, to find my peace, and to find my purpose. I am not ready to tell my entire story and I'm not sure I will ever be ready to share that part of my life with the world. But, I …
Restless
Recently being sick I had some long restless nights. I couldn’t find a comfortable sleeping position to save my life. It didn’t stop me from tossing and turning in hopes that I could find the rest I so desperately sought. At times, I would find myself walking through the house simply hoping to have some …
All Is Calm
In the still of this early morning on Christmas Eve, I listen to the world around me. Cars whiz past my house every now and then but between that and the furnace, those are the only noises I hear. It's calm. It's quiet. The world is mostly at rest. There is peace in the early …
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