The thing about suffering is that we often believe that we are the only ones who have ever known pain. No one else’s pain or trials could compare to our own. Perhaps it’s that tiny part of us that want our stories to be listened to but at the very least, acknowledged. In my own …
Villains and Victors
When I think about the times in my life when I’ve been hurt the most by another person, it’s not the kind of person most people would imagine. It’s not a monster of a person, skulking around in the shadows ready to throw a crowbar into your forehead. No, in my experience it has been …
Fiercely Independent
Fiercely independent. Those are two words that I would use to describe my mom. Although she's going to be 82 years old this year, she has an independent streak of a 21 year old. I've always admired that about her but not seen it so much in myself. Perhaps I have been somewhat independent in …
Do It For Yourself
There are times in life when we have to do things for ourselves. We have to put the work in and wait for the results. Really, for our own happiness. We have to value that kind of happiness enough to make consistent steps toward that end result. It may sound selfish but if we don't …
Protect Your Peace
Peace is sometimes hard to come by, and can be fleeting. I relish the moments of peace in my life such as when the day is new, the sun is still below the horizon, and the birds are barely chirping. When peace is interrupted, it can throw everything off kilter. I have been learning to …
Finally Coming Into My Own
For a while now, I've wondered when I would begin to feel like I was making progress in the right direction. I've prayed for God to heal my heart and to fix what I couldn't fix. But, I never imagined that it could happen without me even realizing it. How can that even happen? But, …
Take It Apart and Fix It
I have a new fire pit that I bought myself for Christmas. It's a tabletop pit that fits into the umbrella hole for the patio table. I had not pulled it out of the box but when I did, I quickly realized the table I had would not work with the set up. The small, …
Something New
A friend recently told me about her idea to turn her property into an event center. Those who know me well know that made my heart skip a beat. Planning events is my jam. I believe I am good at it and I really enjoy it. I blame that on my mama and raising me …
A Break
Do you need a break? From what? This was a writing prompt for today but it got me thinking. It’s easy to say I need a break from work or from paying bills. But I need a break from these dad blame emotions. Some days I ride the emotional roller coaster like I must like …
Restless
Recently being sick I had some long restless nights. I couldn’t find a comfortable sleeping position to save my life. It didn’t stop me from tossing and turning in hopes that I could find the rest I so desperately sought. At times, I would find myself walking through the house simply hoping to have some …
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